Having to hear the Nurse saying the good news really was a sense of relief. I can't never be thankful for this. I anticipate the news for 2 weeks. It's crazy. A major rollercoaster ride! 

Syukur Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah! And I will never stop making my Dua's, still. Amin.

 It's been a long time since I've blog. 

Well, I'm back to work on sites for 3 weeks now. So that explains my hiatus. I do actually miss working from home. It's really hard to part with the cats when it's like 4 months having them around me, meowing for food. Haha. 

I'm currently on "treatment". It's a pretty scary phase that I'm embarking on. But I keep telling myself that I am strong to overcome this. I know I am. Because if I can deal with the pain of having to do Swab Test for every 2 weeks, why not. Oh yea, it's a compulsory for people who work on sites to conduct their Swab Test every two weeks. It's not that scary, well, a bit. It's more to like ticklish plus it's deep! You can actually feel the stick tickles your throat. I kinda grew on it because it's like my 7th time doing it. Haha.

It's madness at work too, when you have to comply to all the rules and regulations. Work is different now. Plus to be extra careful as dormitory workers here in Singapore still holds the largest number affected here. It's tedious to enter sites now, but I grew on it.

I'm more concern on my "treatment". And all I pray for, is for me to be strong, mentally and physically. Just going with the flow and leave it to Allah. Amin.

Made this Nordic Storage. I saw online and it's like WOW! So I had a handful of felt left, so why not. But I would recommend a thicker one as the one I used is thin and flimsy. But works just fine. It's simple to make, no need to sew! All you need is just felt and leather straps. This is really a good organiser for storage. And it only took like half and hour to get it done!

Step 1: Mark the size that you want. My box size is 15cm, so the flap is 7.5cm.

Step 2: Cut the slits.

Step 3: Mark and cut the curves. I use a template of my sewing box case!

Step 4: Punch holes with belt puncher.

Step 5: Use the leather strap to tie the flaps together.

And viola! Simple and save your money!

Really great to store the items that you usually carry, if you are a person who frequently changes her handbags. Hehe. 

I finally put it to use to store my sunglasses and glasses! Dope!

Made these Chapstick Holder for my Mum and Sisters. I saw on Shopee and my guess, hey! Let's just do some. Found fabrics and took out the sewing machine. Let my creativity juice flows. Look darn pretty neat aye. 

Ingredients:

1 packet of instant TomYum Paste

1 stalk of Lemon Grass

1/2 ts of salt

1 packet thick Bee Hoon

1 Chilli Padi

Any choice of meat or seafood

Chopped Garlic and Onion

This is like the best dinner I ever made! 

Chilli Padi Egg and Corn Black Sauce

4 eggs to fry as Mata Lembu then mix with sauce

2 Chilli Padi

3 Big Red Chilli

1 tbs Dark Soy Sauce

1 tbs Light Soy Sauce

2 tbs Sos Tiram

Baby Corns

Black Pepper Chicken

Breast Chicken to cut into small pieces

Minced Garlic

Chopped Onion

1 tbs Dark Soy Sauce

1 tbs Light Soy Sauce

2 tbs Sos Tiram

Corn Flour to mix with water

1/2 ts Salt

2 tbs Black Pepper

2 Big Red Chilli

I chopped off my hair.

Short.  Below my ears. 

I chopped it off myself because I hated the different color as my hair grew longer for over a year. Plus the split ends and how greasy my hair is. Plus, I feel lighter. Like I lift off a huge burden that's weighing on my shoulders. I feel renewed.

And I will be fine. Inshallah, I will be fine.

I'm not a cook, but well I tried. I really tried and I like it. Had fun googling, calling my mum and sister to guide me. And yes, YouTube and Google is my saviour! Finally, we used up the last 3 packets of instant Miso Soup that we bought from Hokkaido Airport early in February this year before the travel ban all over the world. We were lucky to travel and spent our 1st year Anniversary overseas. At that moment, it was actually pretty bad. Because China was greatly affected in late December of 2019, and we were actually pretty scared that our trip might get cancelled. Alhamdulillah, it was such a breeze and when were back in Singapore, things started to get pretty serious. We were totally fine, Alhamdulillah. No illness, no symptoms, Alhamdulillah. It is pretty scary though, because there are still China tourist in Hokkaido. I guess Japan really had it under control at that moment.

So yes, whipped this up! And I tried making the Ramen eggs. Japanese uses Mirin so I substitute it with Apple Cider Vinegar. The smell, pretty darn strong! So I would suggest to use without the vinegar. And more Soy Sauce please. I didn't get the Udon this time round and well, it works. Slice it up with Nori Seaweed, it's good to go! Filled belly, well a happy husband. 

Ingredients:

Marukome Instant Miso Soup (or any other)

Minced onion

Lemongrass

Himalayan Pink Salt

Noodles

Eggs (to soak in Apple Cider, Dark and Light Soy Sauce for 2-4 hours)

Yong Tau Foo (optional)

My safe heaven.

The place where I feel safe. Replica, mirror image, duplicate. Nope, it's an upgrade. My sanctuary, with birds chirping outside the window, with wind blowing the curtains as it flows. I felt home. Home where I once belong and forever will belong. 

Today is the 2nd day of Eid of year 2020. It's different this year due to the COVID-19 virus, restrictions to travel or visiting seems difficult as there will be patrolling officers dropping samans to those who doesn't complies to the rules. Basically, everyone is at home now. And Zoom or any other video conferencing tools is likely a norm for this period of time. 

Singapore will soon lift the "Circuit Breaker" and to said that our lives will have to adapt to the measures. I don't know how our lives will revolve in a week to come. Wearing mask will be a new norm and perhaps working from home might actually works for some of the sectors. I kind of like being at home. I actually save time on commuting to work and save cost for my transportations. But unlikely that I will work from home because I work at constructions sites. And with this, I can foresee the ramp up of handing over inspections due to the delays of 2 month back logs. Meaning I can foresee, working on weekends too.

Ramadhan has left us. It is sad but I only prayed for us to meet for the next Ramadhan, Inshallah. This year Ramadhan is beautiful, I got to admit. I get to cook at home for Iftar, wake up for Tahajjud, performing Ibadah at ease. A cleaner environment, Alhamdulillah. Performing Terawih, Mashallah. A blessed Ramadhan. I am too glad for all the Bangladesh and Indian workers. It's really a break for them and how glad I am that they can fast and perform their Ibadah at ease. Syukur Alhamdulillah, a blessing indeed. 

It's been a trying month. Hearing my maternal favourite auntie, Mak Long, going in and out of the hospital. It's devastating. Worrying, no doubt. Many thoughts comes to my mind but I know Allah is forever Hearing. Moreover knowing with my current condition, I am actually pretty exhausted. All I need is comfort and support; and to Allah, I seek refuge. He is forever Knowing. 

Oh Allah, bless me with strength.

Mulut Busuk 

Ustaz: Lain macam saja awak hari ni, Mat. Saya perhatikan awak senyap saja sejak masuk pejabat pagi tadi. Tidak seperti biasa. awak ada masalah?

Mat: Malulah, Ustaz. Saya malu hendak bercakap apa-apa hari ini.

Ustaz: Jangan macam itu. Kalau ada apa-apa masalah, awak boleh ceritakan kepada saya. Manalah tahu, mungkin ada yang boleh saya bantu. Kalau tidak pun, sekurang-kurangnya saya boleh jadi tempat awak meluahkan apa yang terpendam di hati. Itu sahaja sudah boleh meringankan separuh bebanan hati dan fikiran awak.

Mat: Alah, Ustaz! Janganlah serius-serius sangat. Saya ini tidak ada masalah apa-apa pun. Cuma hari ini malu hendak bercakap sebab mulut saya berbau sangat. Pagi tadi saya tidak gosok gigi. Bila sudah masuk waktu Subuh, baru saya teringat belum gosok gigi lagi. Sejak dari kecil dahulu, arwah Atok ajar kami, selepas sahur kena cepat-cepat gosok gigi. Jangan sampai masuk subuh dan sudah mula puasa, baru hendak gosok. Tidak boleh, dia kata. 

Ustaz: Kesiannya, Mat. Atok awak itu kalau masih hidup, agaknya berdekah-dekah dia ketawakan cucunya ini. Tidak ada mana-mana pendapat ulama pun yang kata semasa bepuasa tidak boleh langsung gosok gigi. Kalau ada pun, cuma khilaf di antara yang kata makruh dengan yang kata tidak makruh untuk menggosok gigi bila sudah masuk waktu Zohor. Itu sahaja.

Mat: Ya kah, Ustaz? Ok lah. Saya pergi gosok gigi sekarang juga. Nanti kita boleh sambung cerita panjang.

Ustaz: Tapi kan, Mat, saya tengok awak ini kalau tidak gosok gigi macam ada baiknya jugalah. Kurang hari ini awak mengata orang. Nasi-nasi tambah bila berborak pun dari Pagi tadi saya tidak dengar. Tidak macam selalu. Bukan begitu, Mat? Sempurna pahala puasa awak hari ini.

Mat: Ai, Ustaz! Tengah-tengah puasa pun sempat ‘laser’ orang? 

Secubit Puasa Secukup Rasa

by Mohamed Fatris Bakaram

(page 56-57)

Yep, I sew these cat's clothes for Momodz and Smokey. 

Can't wait for Eid to put these on them. Hope they look good.

I'm not as strong as the wife of Prophet Ibrahim as. nor the wife of Prophet Zakharia as.

What happened yesterday has ripped me off my womanhood. I was left dumbfounded with what the doctor says that I actually had to choke back my own tears. I wanted to scream, I wanted to curl and my hands were trembling. I had to clench my fists and rub them as to comfort myself.

What the doctors says, seems new to me. I have never heard of these before. I had to make sense out of all of it. She mention that it is genetic and the key word was STRESS. My heart just sank. Because deep down I knew, I've been stressed for some part of my life.

I know everything happens for a reason and I know "Allah does not burden a soul beyond than it can bear... (Quran 2:286)". I knew that He wants me to kept praying, kept seeking for His guidance. I know He loves me and that's why He tested me. He not only test me but those who is around me as well. May Allah ease all of my affairs and may Allah grant me and my husband patience and strength. Amin.


رَبِّ هَبْ لى‏ مِنْ لَدُنْكَ ذُرِيَّةً طَيِّبَةً اِنَّكَ سَميعُ الدُّعاء
Robbi habli miladunka dzurriyyatan toyyibatan innaka samii'ud du'aa

“Ya Tuhanku, berilah aku dari sisi Engkau seorang anak yang baik. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pendengar doa”

Wow.

1 year, 2 months, 2 weeks and 6 days. That is how longed I've been married. And yeah, blogged.

It's been a wild roller coaster. And if you're reading now, yes Singapore is currently on "Circuit Breaker". What's that? It means work from home (wfh) and limited access nationwide. A lot of restrictions because of the world wide phenomena whereby there's this virus, called COVID-19 that was spread in China then bam! Globally. Singapore is in "CB" ever since 7th April and will be extended till 1st June. Currently, there's approximately around 20,000 infected cases and 20 death here. United State has the highest number of infected cases and death. Surprise, surprise.

Anyway, it's Ramadan now. It's been like the 16th day so far and thankfully, I am glad to be home at this period of time. Alhamdulillah. My husband is the happiest because well, I am working from home. And yes, I've started to learn how to cook! Yippee! Pretty challenging during these fasting period whereby I couldn't get to taste while cooking. But by Zikir-ing, Alhamdulillah, the food taste pretty good! I'm a Sous Chef now. Hahaha.

I have like tons of drafts in my blog over the year, well I guess, I'll discard them all and start a new post starting today. There is so much to tell and a lot happened. I think I will slowly unfold one by one as time comes and I won't be posting every single day anymore, that's for sure. But I will be glad to keep this blog as a journal and a reminder of what it's like, being me. 

=)