I'm not as strong as the wife of Prophet Ibrahim as. nor the wife of Prophet Zakharia as.

What happened yesterday has ripped me off my womanhood. I was left dumbfounded with what the doctor says that I actually had to choke back my own tears. I wanted to scream, I wanted to curl and my hands were trembling. I had to clench my fists and rub them as to comfort myself.

What the doctors says, seems new to me. I have never heard of these before. I had to make sense out of all of it. She mention that it is genetic and the key word was STRESS. My heart just sank. Because deep down I knew, I've been stressed for some part of my life.

I know everything happens for a reason and I know "Allah does not burden a soul beyond than it can bear... (Quran 2:286)". I knew that He wants me to kept praying, kept seeking for His guidance. I know He loves me and that's why He tested me. He not only test me but those who is around me as well. May Allah ease all of my affairs and may Allah grant me and my husband patience and strength. Amin.


رَبِّ هَبْ لى‏ مِنْ لَدُنْكَ ذُرِيَّةً طَيِّبَةً اِنَّكَ سَميعُ الدُّعاء
Robbi habli miladunka dzurriyyatan toyyibatan innaka samii'ud du'aa

“Ya Tuhanku, berilah aku dari sisi Engkau seorang anak yang baik. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pendengar doa”