I used to wonder how people can be alone, like they don't wish to be married or live their lives alone. It comes to this that I realized that, maybe some times people do want to be married and have kids and all. But Allah haven't give that rezeki just yet.
And for some, they know the meaning of hurt. So that's why they choose to be alone.

I mean, I've been living my life pretty much independently. Alhamdulillah I'm cool with it. Ever since I've start working at the retail shop, I've learnt that working life, you have to battle things alone at times. And pretty much I've grew to be better individual and as well as a team player. I ate alone and I enjoy quiet time to myself. By eating alone, meaning you sat in the crowded food court and striking a conversation with the neighbour. That's the difference with eating alone, tapao-ing and eating at your work desk. By being alone, meaning you socialising with the people you met.

Once, I was called crazy for watching a concert alone. I didn't think I'm crazy nor lonely. I enjoyed it much. I am brave, strong and independent. I watched movies alone, dine alone, watch the ballet alone, have a staycation alone, attended talks alone. Pretty much I don't seem to need a companion to do things together. Well at times, I do. And this is not crazy. I don't know why people have this misconception that people who enjoyed doing things alone are lonely. I, for once now understand the joy of doing things alone. Meaning you have the time to think to yourself and make decisions and yes, chop chop! Like you don't have to wait for someone whose in the toilet, powdering her nose! I am unsure if you get what I mean.

But pretty much, being alone is not lonely. Or miserable. I prefer to think that it's a brave step. Not many can endure this. Else, tolerate this. Being alone has taught me to grow. Alhamdulillah. I tend to make decisions for myself. I tend to think and question myself. I tend to even see beauty in everything.

And most importantly, I fall back in love with myself.