I don't know why people kept telling me to heal my heart without knowing the meaning
 on how or what I meant to healing my own heart.

There is more to it, it's deeper. Much more deeper.

It's a deeper conversation with Allah, if only they knew what I actually meant.

Healing my heart, not only from the pain, hatred, anger, disappointments.

It's also about Huznuzon. Meaning think good of whatever it is that's happening.

This is my battle, this is my Jihad.
Think good of what is happening and healing myself at the same time.
It's never about the outcome will be. Or how healed I am.
I can never be heal.
It's the effort that I'm putting to healing myself.
And with Allah, I know that He's there.
He's always there, to ease me.