Today I sat at my prayer mat during Zohor, thinking.

How blessed I am. Alhamdulillah.

Allah is forever kind to me, Alhamdulillah.

I sat in tears, feeling so ashamed to Allah.

He is protecting me and guiding me. Everyday, every step that I make.

He is saving me, indeed He is. He always save me.

I've realised why this didn't work out for me, it's because Allah loves me. Always.

From each time He gave me time to remember Him, always.

He is protecting me from committing Zina, He is protecting me from who knows what will ever happen in the future that maybe something bad were to happen which I'm unable to take it.

He is protecting me because He loves my parents and to which my parents doesn't deserve any less.

Alhamdulillah. I am truly blessed, Ya Allah.

I may be blind not to see it, but Alhamdulillah for this heart to finally feel the love You have for me.