Poplook red polka dot dress, Uniqlo cream cardigan, pink shawl, 

Crocs Marin ColorLite loafers, Kate Spade Cobble Hill sling bag

When you forgotten to bring your sejadah for prayers!

The cheat code to sleep while at your desk is to put a heavy object on one of the keys at your keyboard. Welcome.

It's really nice to attend wedding with someone, some time. It's been quite sometime as I attended events alone and it's nice to have a companion to accompany you. Alhamdulillah to have people who cares about you and Alhamdulillah for the invitations that I was being invited to. Life is just beautiful and how wonderful Allah has designed everything for you.

Because being aunt to Zhafran is one of the bestest feeling! 

Alhamdulillah. 

P.s: I wish you are here, Saren. =,(

You will begin to heal when you 

let go of past hurts and forgive those 

who have wronged you.

(Imam Ali)

When you find yourself in a position to help someone, be happy because Allah is answering that person's prayer through you.

Going back to school has this mixed feelings.

Because seeking knowledge is the best.

But doing assignments is a chore!

Haha.

Because he's the king of the bridge!

Hehehe.

I went to Safinah's talk and was asked to write down 15 things that I'm grateful for. 

And I wonder what's yours?

After his return to Madina from the Farewell Pilgrimage, Prophet Muhammad’s health began to decline. During the days of his illness he visited the graves of the Uhud martyrs and performed the funeral prayer. Leaving his house on another night, he went to Madina’s graveyard and entreated God’s forgiveness for those buried there. During this time, Aswad al-Ansi from Yemen’s Madhhij tribe emerged with the proclamation of Prophethood.

During this time, Prophet Muhammad suffered from headaches that intensified from time to time as well as high fever. During his illness, he went to lead prayers in the Prophet’s Mosque with the help of his Companions. On one such occasion, he climbed to the pulpit and said: “A servant has been allowed to choose this world or his Lord. He chose his Lord.” Immediately understanding that the Prophet was referring to himself, Abu Bakr began to cry, exclaiming, “My mother and father be your ransom, O God's Messenger!” The Prophet consoled him and told him that he was very pleased with him. Thereafter reminding the Emigrants and Helpers of their mutual sacrifice and virtues, advised them to act in unison. He later instructed those who had rights over him to come to him to ask for their rights. He counseled scrupulousness regarding the rights of others and paying debts on time, and cautioned against turning graves into temples, as witnessed throughout history.

The Prophet’s last will to his daughter Fatima and his aunt Safiyya is noteworthy: “Perform acts of goodness valuable in the eyes of God. Otherwise, I cannot save you from God’s holding you to account in the Hereafter in matters of the permissible and the prohibited.”

Prophet Muhammad spent his last days with ‘A’isha and when his illness intensified three days before his demise, he asked Abu Bakr to lead the prayers. At a point at which he felt better, he went to the Mosque with the assistance of ‘Ali and Fadl ibn ‘Abbas and when Abu Bakr, who was leading the prayers, retreated to allow the Prophet to return to his place, the Prophet indicated for him to continue and stood for prayer by his side. Following the morning prayer of the day the Prophet passed away, Abu Bakr visited him and upon seeing his situation slightly improved, sought his permission and retuned to his home. However, the Prophet’s condition deteriorated suddenly. According to ‘A’isha’s account, before Prophet Muhammad passed away, he said softly, “There is no god but God, how difficult it is to surrender the soul!” and passed away in her arms, with the words, “To Rafiq al-A'la! (the Highest Abode)” (13 Rabi’ al-Awwal, 11/Monday 8 June, 632).

Resources: http://www.lastprophet.info/40-the-last-days-of-the-holy-prophet-his-sickness-and-his-death

وَإِذَا مَرِضْتُ فَهُوَ يَشْفِينِ

wa-idzaa maridhtu fahuwa yasyfiin

"And when I am ill, it is He who cures me."

(Surah Ash-Shura: ayah 80)

Question:

Is wearing braces allow in Islam?

Answer: 

It is not haram to wear braces since it does not constitute changing Allah's creation. What constitutes changing Allah's creation is the act of changing permanently something that is already normal. Braces are worn for crooked teeth that are not normal, so it is not haram to wear it. Resources: https://eservices.muis.gov.sg/ifaq/apps/fcd_faqmain.aspx#FAQ_156331

Where: Marina Square

How to get there: Go down 2 floors using escalator near Coffee Bean to B1 carpark. Turn left out from sliding door. See AA3 pillar and turn left, walk all the way back to carpark lot 69. Musollah is secluded. Advisable for Muslimah to take ablution at toilet as ablution corner is an open concept.

This time round, my Umrah journey is a beautiful one. I wish it didn't end so quickly as it seems. I just love performing my Umrah because I have to leave my worldly commitment behind. I forget everything back home, work, school, friends, family and all. 

Well, actually I didn't. 

Everything and everyone else that matters is in my prayers, actually. Mashallah. I thought I leave everything behind, but for the fact, I left my commitment behind but with the thought of the people whom you love, is always with you in your prayers. Mashallah. Performing your Umrah is really the best thing ever, it's like carefree. All you do and focus on is your Ibadah. Your spiritual health and inner feelings that you handed openly to Allah. You submit to your Lord, hoping in return He will guide and ease you. Mashallah. I hope to become stronger in my faith, my religion and my spiritual being. I hope to be stronger as ever in my deen, my character and knowledge. I hope to be stronger after every fall. I hope to love fiercely to our Prophet Muhammad (saw) and know him, and praise him and take his characteristic as a role model. And I hope to be more stronger than ever, for the sake of Allah (swt). Inshallah. Amin.

Goodbye is the most hardest thing to say.

Just don't let this be my last,

let this be the first thing that makes me feel closer to my faith every waking day.

My parents has always been the best role models for me. I am really thankful and blessed with this gift. Alhamdulillah. Looking at how old they've aged, I can never repay whatever they have done for me. I have nothing to offer them except dua for them. May they be placed in Paradise among with the pious. Inshallah. Amin.

They have not only been the best role models, but their love story is a beautiful one. It is beautiful that whenever I felt discourage, I'll remind myself that somehow that my love story would be similar as theirs. They were match made and it was a long way to get to where they are now. Alhamdulillah. They were both opposites yet attracted after marriage. Love grew after marriage. Both were heartbroken and yet Allah is just as beautiful to join their hearts as one. Empathy, compassion and kindness, that's what love is all about. I've always wanted to have a love like their. Whereby each complements each other, work together and complete each other's deen. It is something beautiful because what is made of this life is for the Hereafter. 

Somewhere in this hill was the birth of Nabi Muhammad (saw). This hill was located behind Masjidil Al-Haram. Muhammad is the son of Abdullah bin Abdul Muttalib and Amina bint Wahb. Abdullah was seventeen years old when he was married to Amina, a high-born lady of Yathrib, a city in the north of Makkah. He was not, however, destined to live long, and died only seven months after his marriage. Amina sent the tidings of the auspicious birth to her father in law, Abdul Muttalib, who came and gave him the name Muhammad.

Amina gave her child, Muhammad, to Halima, a woman of the tribe of Banu Asad, living in the east of Makkah, for nursing. As an infant, Muhammad spent the first four years of his life in the desert with his wet-nurse. Sometime in the fifth year of his life, she is reported to have brought him back to his mother in Makkah.

Muhammad was six years old when Amina, his mother died. He was then taken by Abdul Muttalib, his grandfather, to his home. But within two years, Abdul Muttalib also died. Just before his death, Abdul Muttalib called all his sons together and told them that he was leaving two “bequests” for them. One was the leadership of the clan of Banu Hashim, and the other was Muhammad ibn Abdullah, their nephew, an orphan of eight.

He then asked them who among them wanted his power and authority as the leader of the tribe, and who among them would take charge of the boy who had lost both parents. Most of his sons showed much eagerness to be named the leader of the tribe but no one volunteered to take charge of Muhammad. As Abdul Muttalib surveyed the assembly and contemplated the future of Muhammad, an uneasy silence fell over the scene. But it didn't last long as Abu Talib, one of his sons stepped forward and said that he wanted the son of his late brother, Abdullah, and that he had no interest in authority and power.

Abu Talib's forthright declaration clinched the matter for Abdul Muttalib. He decided to make Abu Talib not only the guardian of Muhammad but also the guardian of the clan of Banu Hashim. Abdul Muttalib announced on his death-bed that his son, Abu Talib, would succeed him as the new chief of Banu Hashim, and that he would also be the guardian of Muhammad. He then ordered the assembly to acknowledge Abu Talib as the new leader of Banu Hashim. The latter complied, and was then dismissed.

Resources: https://www.al-islam.org/restatement-history-islam-and-muslims-sayyid-ali-ashgar-razwy/birth-muhammad-and-early-years-his

This time round I went up to Jabal Rahmah by climbing the rocks instead of taking the stairs. Mashallah that struggle. It's like finding my Adam who is still in search for me too. Hehe.

Jabal Rahmah is a mountain which is famous for the story of Prophet Adam (as) and Hawa (Eve) love meetings. Jabal Rahmah is on the edge of Padang Arafah which is an area in the eastern outskirts of Makkah. Rahmah means mercy. 

The name was taken from a story believed by Muslims, which is a meeting between Adam and Hawa. So when Adam and Hawa were separated due to breaking a promise of Allah, it was to say that they were thrown out from Paradise and Allah place Prophet Adam somewhere in India while Hawa in Jeddah. And Jabal Rahmah is the place where they both met after 300 long years.

On top of Jabal Rahmah there is a monument made ​​of concrete rectangular with a width of 1.8 meters and a height of 8 meters. A local people believe that the location of the meeting of Adam and Hawa is at the exact point of the monument. Jabal Rahmah itself can be regarded as the hills. Only about 70 meters high and can be climbed only by passing pilgrims which takes about 20 minutes. Near monuments, many pilgrims made Dua for a life-long partner.

Jabal Rahmah is also a place for the historic journey of the Prophet Muhammad (saw). It was there that he received the final revelation of Allah, as well as a complement of the teachings of Islam.

رَبَّنَا هَبْ لَنَا مِنْ أَزْوَٰجِنَا وَذُرِّيَّٰتِنَا قُرَّةَ أَعْيُنٍ وَٱجْعَلْنَا لِلْمُتَّقِينَ إِمَامًا

"Rabbana hablana min azwaajina, wa dzurriyyatina qurrata a'yuniw, waj'alna lil muttaqiena imaamaa."

"Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkanlah kepada kami jodoh [isteri-isteri] kami dan keturunan kami sebagai penyenang hati (kami), dan jadikanlah kami imam bagi orang2 yang bertakwa." 

(QS Al-Furqaan 74)

رَبِّ لَا تَذَرْنِى فَرْدًا وَأَنتَ خَيْرُ ٱلْوَٰرِثِينَ

“ROBBI LAA TADZARNI FARDAN WA ANTA KHOIRUL WAARITSIN”.

"Ya Tuhanku janganlah Engkau membiarkan aku hidup seorang diri dan Engkaulah Waris Yang Paling Baik."

رَبِّ هَبْ لِي مِنْ لَدُنْكَ زَوْجًا طَيِّبًا أَخْطُبُهَ وَأَتَزَوَّجُ بِهِ وَيَكُوْنُ صَاحِبًا لِى فِى الدُنْيَا وَالْأَخِرَة

“ROBBI HABLII MILLADUNKA ZAUJAN THOYYIBAN WAYAKUUNA SHOOHIBAN LII FIDDIINI WADDUNYAA WAL AAKHIROH”.

“Ya Robb, berikanlah kepadaku suami yang terbaik dari sisi-Mu, suami yang juga menjadi sahabatku dalam urusan agama, urusan dunia & akhirat”.

The only time I prayed Jumaat is in Madinah and Makkah. I really glad I did. It's just such wonderful feeling. With different language barrier, different way of praying because of our culture. But being together as one Ummah with one and only mission, which is to submit ourselves to our Lord. It's just beautiful. Alhamdulillah.

They say New York never sleeps.

They haven't seen Makkah/Madinah just yet.

=)

Performing my Umrah at 1:20am still. 

This is where I want to be.

Alhamdulillah.

It's hard saying goodbye to Madinah al-Munawwarah as I started to fall in love with the city that our Prophet Muhammad (saw) was buried. The first Umrah, I created a connection with Allah (swt) and this time, I learnt to love the Prophet more and build relationship with him deeper. Madinah holds a very special place in my heart and I ashamedly say that I love Madinah more than Makkah. I asked my aunt if it is wrong? She then replied me, "It is never wrong. If you love Madinah, meaning you love the Prophet. And whoever loves the Prophet, loves Allah." 

=,)

This is like the most memorable event of my life that I will never forget. Mashallah, I am speechless and only Allah knows how blessed I am. Alhamdullilah.

I went to a hipster shop somewhere around the corner of the hotel I reside in. My mum and my aunt was standing outside the shop while I went in to purchase some things. The owner of the shop kept welcoming my mum and aunt in and finally, the both of them went in. Inside the shop, there is also another customer who looked middle aged man with 3 females along with him. My aunt saw a Quran set somewhere near the counter and quote for the price. She was told 70 Riyal and she tried her luck bargaining it to 50 Riyal. The offer was declined as the shop has it's prices fixed with price tags. Somehow, the middle age man was paying his items talk in Arabic to the shop owner and to my confound, the shop owner took down 3 sets of the Quran and packed in a bag and handed to us. 

The 3 of us stood dumbfounded and not knowing what to reply, the middle aged man look at us and said, " This one Hadiah (present) from me to you three." I was shocked and lost for words, but all I know I cried in front of everybody. I felt so ashamed yet touched with his amazing gesture. Mashallah, a stranger just bought us a Quran set for each of us and that is really beautiful. A handful of people in my life, besides my parents has ever bring me closer to my religion and here he is, a stranger, a stranger is bringing me and guiding me closer to my religion. Mashallah. Alhamdullilah. =,)

We said our many thanks and all the middle aged man wants in returned is for us to pray for him and his children (apparently). Mashallah. No words can ever describe this beautiful, beautiful event that I've encountered. My heart is just so thankful and blessed that Allah crossed our paths for reasons. Mashallah. 

Oh Allah, please blessed Abdul Rahman and his children and his wife in this life and not forgetting the Hereafter. Oh Allah, placed them near Rasulullah and among the pious. Oh Allah, please grant them Jannah. Oh Allah, please forgive them and guide them to Sirat al-Mustaqim. Oh Allah, stay them away from Jahannam and have mercy on them. Oh Allah, please give them generations after generations of the pious. Oh Allah, please bless them with good health, Rezeki and Nikmat of this Duniya and give them Paradise in Akhirat. Amin.

This was located near Jabal Uhud, simply my favourite part of Rasulullah (saw) battle history. The mosques is still under construction and was said to be dedicated to one of his Sahabah, Umar bin al-Khattab. I am really looking forward to visit the in the future, Inshallah. 

Umar was born in Mecca 13 years after the incident of the Elephant, In 583 A.D. Of his early years there are not many recorded details save that he grazed camels for his father who was very harsh with him. In his reign he would recall his father’s harshness to him when he passed the field which caused him pains early in his life. We later see him as wrestler who used to attend the famed Ukaz (the annual fair.) Also due to his family’s position in the Meccan Hierarchy he would receive an above average education and would travel throughout Arabia and Greater Syria. Umar’s personality was dynamic, self-assertive, frank and straight forward. He always spoke whatever was on his mind even if it displeased others.

Umar had the respect and sometimes fear of many of his contemporaries. He personally involved himself in many of the states affairs. He was the hands on type and if he saw anything that did not please him he made no secret of it. He would constantly write letters of advice and guidance to his generals. Umar had the welfare of the Muslims in his mind at all times. Umar’s food was simple which consisted of bread and olive oil. Rarely would he eat anything else, at times it is recorded that he eat meat, vegetables milk and vinegar. His dress was also simple such as a shirt only which was known to have a number of patches in it. He also wore a cap and sandals. 

Umar continued to live simply to his final day. One of his companions reminiscing about Umar’s days he said of him: "When he walked, he did so quickly as to get someplace, when He spoke he was loud enough to be heard and when his hit it would hurt." He was a man of purpose and a Mission. He left a legacy that is not easy to follow.

Resources: http://www.muslimphilosophy.com/mih/isl/umar.htm

Being here once again makes me realised something that I've forgotten to love most besides my mother, my father - the man whom I greatly looked up to and the reason why no man can beat the love that my father gives. I forgotten how great our Prophet Muhammad (saw) is. Mashallah. I weeped upon when the Mutawif make doa and I realised I yearn and longed to be closed to our Prophet. I actually miss him, I love him and I yearn for his love, and no man can ever be compared to him. Allahu'akbar. May Allah bring me closer and closer to Prophet Muhammad and learn to love again. To fall back in love with our Prophet, along with all his Sahabat and the love that he have for his Ummah.

=,)

‎لَبَّيْكَ اللَّهُمَّ لَبَّيْكَ، لَبَّيْكَ لاَ شَرِيْكَ لَكَ لَبَّيْكَ

‎إِنَّ الْحَمْدَ وَالنِّعْمَةَ لَكَ وَالْمُلْكَ لاَ شَرِيْكَ لَكَ

Labbaikallahumma Labbaik

Labbaika Laa Syarikalaka Labbaik

Innalhamda Wan Ni’mata

Laka Wal Mulk

Laa Syarikalak

"Aku memenuhi panggilanMu ya Allah aku memenuhi panggilanMu. Aku memenuhi panggilanMu tiada sekutu bagiMu aku memenuhi panggilanMu. Sesungguhnya pujian dan ni’mat adalah milikMu begitu juga kerajaan tiada sekutu bagiMu."

It's pretty much been a very emotional ride these few weeks. Oh Allah, I know You are testing me. But really, this time round, it's been really emotional that I can't put my finger on it to whether it's PMS symptoms or just tests from You. But whatever it is, it gave me sort of hope for a better tomorrow. Inshallah.

Soon, I will be embarking my journey to Madinah and Makkah for the second time. And these tests has been really challenging. Not only to me but to my surroundings too. I decided to go for the second time because I find the need to be closer to Allah. Because He's the only one who can save me for when I'm broken. Yes, I'm broken for the second time and I'm never angry at Allah. I just need to learn to understand that what happen for me is for me. What happen for me, is for me. And I trust in Allah plans because He is all knowing.

People went for pilgrim because of different reasons. To whether they are heartbroken, separated from love ones, having a hard time conceiving a child, losing a career and many other reasons. But down right to one point, is to seek Allah's guidance, love and to strengthen our Imaan and Ibadah. Mashallah. We are all here, facing the Kaabah because we believe in the One and the One can only understands us and believe that there will be ease. Inshallah.

I used to want so much in this Duniya, but I grow to not wanting anything that much because it breaks us. Duniya breaks us. It's a temporary place where material things don't last, people hurts us and this Duniya that takes up a lot of our precious time doing things that is not for us. Therefore I choose to perform my Umrah again as to get closer to Allah and doing this to strengthen and reminding myself of my Imaan. It's sort of renewing my vows to Allah, it's like a detox therapy. It like reliving again and starting a new. And it's also to exercise my faith in my religion, my patience and my Adab towards people around me. 

I just hope and pray that Allah could ease all of my parents, my aunt and my affairs and accepting us for being a Ummah of Rasulullah to His beautiful creation. I am someone whose weak in my Imaan and make a lot of sins. I just hope to be forgiven and be cleansed for all my wrong-doings. Inshallah. And may I heal my broken heart and learn that I am never broken, it's actually that the situations that's broken and never me that's broken. As Allah have never leave His servants broken unless he broke himself apart. 

Inshallah. Amin.

Remember the post regarding the soil cells? So this is how the outcome of how it looks like. It acts as a fire engine access way. It's a provision of external access to building for fire fighting and accessibility in case of fire. With the yellow embedded bollards on the grass, it's an indicative mark for fire engine vehicle to access. It should have a clear width of of 6m minimum and located near to fire hydrant. 

I hope someday, I could obtain FFSC license. It could be incredible to learn more knowledge. Inshallah.

Reference: https://www.scdf.gov.sg/content/scdf_internet/en/building-professionals/publications_and_circulars/fire_code_2002handbooks/_jcr_content/par/download_29/file.res/hb_v5_ch4.pdf

Today I came to office and break down and cry upon seeing these on my desk. It's the most amazing and incredible feeling that I can't describe. It's the most comforting gesture that I needed badly to remind myself that I'm doing ok. Alhamdullilah, may she be blessed always. 

Working on construction site not only makes me learn to endure men, dust and noise. 

But it also allows me to witness beautiful creations of the Al-Mighty which is the clouds and trees, the amazing design and construction aspect of the buildings that He gave people the ability to put to us. It also makes me appreciate the workers cuteness and creativity! Mashallah, may all these general workers be blessed always. May they be protected from natural disasters, mishaps, accidents and carelessness. May they be reunite with they families someday when the their time is right. Amin. 

Aduh, betapa sakitnya berkeping-keping jadinya hati,

berpecah-pecah rasanya jiwa,

berderai-derai air mata usah dikatakan lagi.

Betapa sakitnya ingin diluah sakitnya itu,

sesungguhnya aku tidak mampu.

Hilang daya berkata-kata,

hilang suara mencurah cerita.

Sesungguhnya hati ini tidak mampu.

Pujuklah hati, jangan sakit lagi.

Pujuklah hati, jangan terus lemah begini.

Pujuklah hati, bangkitlah daripada perit.

Pujuklah hati yang dirimu ada Allah menemani.

Move On!

by Reyna Ibrahim

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