Today after solat Terawih with my family, my parents asked if I was ok. I had to fake it that things is fine with me. My parents was so concerned and told me it's alright if things is not going well as there will be always be a way and Allah is forever kind. 

I just don't know what to say as I was confused and lost. Or maybe I am in denial. I just felt like I was being stabbed, so deep. Really deep.