If I’m gone someday, 

Will you still want me? Or need me.

Will you remember and miss me,

Ayra and Adam?

 I’m dead inside.

And out.

 At times I thought to myself, that;

There’s always a reason to losing you.

If I didn’t lose you,

You would be a place where I find solace and relief. 

I miss you.

Marriage is tough. 

Your partner won’t understand you. Nevertheless, he’s able to listen to you. Especially when he has no elder guidance or advisors. 

All you’re left with that, is just shit.

And at a losing end. 

The greatest life you once had, has come to an end.

 It’s pretty lonely here.

 I yearn so much for,

a good 10 hours of sleep;

a proper haircut;

an amazing massage;

maybe a good depressing cry;

peace and quiet.

But instead, I can only dream.

 Somehow being a mother feels lonely, depressing and being alienated. You will feel left out. Life changed, tremendously indeed. And you are left with your thoughts and feelings. You start questioning why’s. And maybe have a few regrets. It’s dangerous as you know what it can do to you. One thing for sure you know, that

There’s no turning back.