Some times, I do question my life choices. Why am I here? Why am I still here?

I stop and take deep breath. Istighfar and remind myself to exercise calmness. I then go back to why did I first start, wanting to be here. It took me 3 attempts to finally get here, so, I shall be thankful. Third time is a charm indeed. Allah tests our perseverance and endurances. Alhamdullilah I've succeed. 

Nope, I actually haven't. Success comes when I am truly thankful and being acceptance for where I am now. I have yet, to prove myself and my heart that. Inshallah Amin. Reasons to why am I here is simple, is to have a 5 working day job. With no doubt, lesser pay. But I am thankful. Never thought that Allah actually blessed me more than that, Alhamdulillah. Syukur, yes! The environment that I'm in is never clean. Dusty flying around and all, but I am contented and blessed. Scorching hot sun, heavy noises, surrounded by male dominated industry. Simple things that I am blessed with is to performing my daily prayers. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah! With colleagues who reminds me to prayer, Mashallah. Not only the Muslims but other races too. It's really heart warming, threfore I am Syukur. 

Come to think of it, this is the reason why I am still here.

Alhamdulillah.