The other time after solat jemaah with my parents, I break down and told my parents that I am left hanging. My dad looks at me and say, "Astaghfirullah adik. Allah never leaves us hanging, never!" There was a faint cry when he said that and I knew he is disappointed with me for saying that. He then told me, "Never lose your Imaan adik, even though you've lost some things. Never ever lose your Imaan. Sabr and dua, that's the only thing that you can offer for the one you love."